self-analyzing myself

[bluewomble858]

Milk Tray Man wrote:

> bluewomble858 wrote:
>
> > in closing, i did not write her a poam of undying love milk
> > tray man, i wrote her a poam on how pretty she was, i loved
> her
> > eyes, her hair, her cute nose, her body and most of all her
> > smile.
>
> Same thing: Too much way too soon.
>
>
> > and she came on
> > to me and i was floating on air because of that fact.
>
> Well if that's the case, you clearly aren't the gargoyle that
> you seem to think you are.

well, milk tray man, you'd have to excuse me for doing that, i was 15 years old when i did that and i just love with all of my heart. i'm more aged now, so my mindset has altered alot. back then, i believe i needed a woman to validate myself and wanted a family, but as i grew older, i found that i can't stand children and will never have any and i don't believe in getting married until your in your 50's because geting married any younger than that does'nt make any sense to me. it was just teenage love.

somebody i talk to in los angeles said that in a more nicer way, but i want to feel love and i love when somebody loves me. i don't think i'm a gorgoyle, it just a mindset when you don't get attention from the opposite sex, you tend to feel your not sexy.

Essex Lad wrote:

> Don't see anything wrong with the way you look. I certainly
> wouldn't call you ugly.

i got a beard now i'd like to point out. but that's a moot point, as it will be shaved off once i get the money for some razors, which i should sometime in the next two weeks.

thanks for the responses and KRO everybody

[Essex Lad]

Blimey, how expensive are razors in America?

[bluewomble858]

Essex Lad wrote:

> Blimey, how expensive are razors in America?

well, the ones i buy are between $12.00 - $15.00 a box. i get five razors that last me about five months since i only shave twice a month. i can't shave with the cheep razors because i have sensitive skin and i get alot of hair bumps, thus they cut me more often than the brand i buy.

[bluewomble858]

this is just me ranting. but i was suppost to help this guy out today and he pissed me off. last week, my mom told me this guy needed help moving some things in his garage. he had bugged my mom about it for two months that he needed help and she told him "i'll ask my son if he will help you."

well, at first, i was'nt going to help the guy because my back and knees give me fits if i lift too much and plus, the guy is a tosser, he plays his loud music all day and works on his hot rod all night and revs the engine where the whole neighborhood can hear it. but he offered me $50, so i said, ok, what the hell, i could use the money.

well then i get my work clothes on and i go over to help him (after he had been bugging us for such a long time) and i arrive at his place (which is just around the corner from where i live) and he tells me "no, i don't need your help, i already found somebody else who will do it for free."

what really burns me is he has been bugging me and my mom for two weeks, wanting somebody to help him, then he finds somebody after all of that.

i was even willing to help him a week ago and he said "oh no, not now, i got company coming over" which turned out to be a couple of women, a guy friend of his and a 12 pack and they played their music loud, assumingly got pissed drunk (because there were bottles everywhere the next day) and partied well into the morning hours.

i'm the kind of guy where as if your going to ask me to do something, i want to do it NOW. i don't like putting things off, so when people ask me to do things, i perfer to do it at the time because then i'll think about it, obsess about it, worry about it until the job is done.

if he asks me again, he knows where he can go and i'll give him directions to get there. don't waste my time.

KRO everybody.