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Essex Lad
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I didn't realise you're American. Can I ask where did the name Bluewomble comes from? I didn't know the furry creatures were known Stateside.
bluewomble858
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to 3SS, you seem like a very nice guy and i have no grudge with you. i know i have a tendancy to fly off the deep end. but i read in insult in what he said to me and that's that. there's no changing that. if you expecting a apology, don't hold your breath. i'd just rather go my way and agree to disagree. i will no longer respond to anything milk tray man says, if he wants to continue it, he can do it by himself. i've slept since then, it's a new day and i don't have time for BS like that. we will just go our seperate ways.

the funny thing about the hold thing is what he insulted me about would be off base now. i don't want to know anybody in porn now. people are people and i can accept that. i've always been a misanthrope and it's been a struggle for me. when your bi-polar, you have massive mood swings, one minute you could be calm and relaxed, but somebody could say something and you could become angry. plus, it's a war inside of me because i try to reach out to humankind, yet, i quite hate humankind. i've never had any friends, never had any girlfriends and have been a loner my whole life. i'm not feeling sorry for myself because i like me. but never could understand why nobody else liked me. i got made fun of alot, i got in a lot of fights, and the only people who truely excepted me were my mom and my grandmother (R.I.P. nana).

essex man asked why womble, because the team that is responsible for me discovering football is wimbledon. it started with me geting fifa 2000 and them being my team of choice, but then i read about the crazy gang of the 80's and 90's and it was a david and goliath story that drew me to them. the names lawrie sanchez, alan cork, wally downes, robbie earle, alan kimble, john hartson, vinnie jones, john fashanu, dean holdsworth, kenny cunningham and many more. i did'nt start watching football until 2005 and by that time, wimbledon was gone. i started watching alot of birmingham city matches and gravitated to them, plus i did'nt know afc wimbledon exsisted because i had no internet at the time. i had internet from 2001-05 and then went a whole year without internet in 2006.

also 3SS, i don't want 50 penalty shootouts, i'm saying i want more people to be assertive and shoot the ball. you see it at any park in the country, a man breaks through the defensive line, is onside and all by himself against the keeper and he's looking for somebody to pass too. i'm screaming "BE SELFISH, SHOOT SON!!!". i want them to have faith in their ability. what if you not being selfish and scoring a goal ends up in your team being relegated. some of the best goalscorers out their have to be selfish because they know they are the one's best suited to score. i think people like zlatan ibrahimovic or cristiano ronaldo are egomanical prats, but they are the best suited to score on their team because they have faith in the talents they have. you don't have to be them to feel that way, you could be joe blow playing for chesterfield, as long as your confident in your abilities, it will come to you.

plus 3SS, sports in america have gone down the toilet. the NFL is fixed, the NBA is a thug league, MLB is'nt as good as it used to be and i root for a canadian hockey team in the NHL because hockey is canada's game. plus, MLS is a joke, no relegation/promotion, all of the teams come from big markets and the football is terrible. it's sad when bradley wright-phillips passes as a star in your league when he was run of the mill at charlton and plymouth. people in europe give a damn. for a example, if tommorow the owner of the baltimore ravens annouced "i'm moving the team to omaha, nebraska." nobody would do anything about it. no protests, no nothing. but if somebody bought leeds united and said "i'm moving the team to wakefield and renaming them wakefield united". the leeds supporters would protest, have giant banners at matches with anti-move slogans, would do anything they had to do (even if it was illegal) to keep their team in leeds because it's theirs. as would any other set of supporters at any other club. i really like and respect that because when your a supporter of a football club, your part of a family. you may not always get along with your family, but your family none the less.

everybody, can i please plead with you to just let's all end this madness and move on. i got a life and i'm sure milk tray man does as well. me and milk tray man can agree to disagree and go our seperate ways. i hate making enemies with anybody because i'm a pacifist at heart. i hate war, i don't like to fight, i love to have a good time. i was insulted by what he said and that's that. it's not a indictment on him or anybody else for that matter. can we all just move on, put this behind us and have it done and dusted???

i wish everybody nothing but peace, love and happiness and want to insist i'm not trying to be a troll. once again, i was insulted. i've questioned why i watch porn in the first place and i usually come to the conclusion to feel human. i'm reaching out for human touch even though i never will have it. milk tray man in my mind is one of a along line of people to ridicule me. it's when my mindset starts believing people hate me. the wall by pink floyd is something i'm like. i go through phases where i build a wall detacting me from humanity, but then i reach out wanting companionship and then something like this happens and i go back to building my wall.

i thank everybody for reading this. you took time out of your day to read this. i hope you all have a great peaceful day and if i could pass on some advice, if you have somebody who loves you, tell them you love them. everyday, at random times. ones who are loved are fortunate because true love is the greatest gift anybody can give. KRO everybody.

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3SS
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Post by 3SS »

To Milk Tray Man: Thank you. I did get it. I got it the first time I read it. I even re read it dozens of times to see if there was something I missed that could be construed as insulting to bluewomble858. I kept drawing a blank, and since bluewomble858 doesn't seem to want to explain how he came to his conclusion, we may never know.
Milk Tray Man
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Post by Milk Tray Man »

bluewomble858 wrote:

[quote]everybody, can i please plead with you to just let's all end this madness and move on. i got a life and i'm sure milk tray man does as well. me and milk tray man can agree to disagree and go our seperate ways. i hate making enemies with anybody because i'm a pacifist at heart. i hate war, i don't like to fight, i love to have a good time. i was insulted by what he said and that's that. it's not a indictment on him or anybody else for that matter. can we all just move on, put this behind us and have it done and dusted??? [/quote]

Fine, truce. Based on what you have written above you clearly find it very hard to interact socially and deal with people (I don't mean that in an "insulting" or demeaning way, just calling it as I see it). And that's a shame because your heart seems to be in the right place.

Probably easier said than done for you, but try and get out there and make friends because the world really is not as against you as you clearly seem to think it is - as proven by your reaction to my "insult", which at least two other forumites saw straight away was actually nothing more than an observation and a suggestion that you look at the subject from another angle, and not an "insult" at all. And I'm still at a total loss and scratching my head as to how you came to the conclusion that I was somehow calling you a "freak".

Good luck anyway.

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to everyone. have you ever been suicidal???? i have. have you ever been told your nothing and you should die because your a waste of space??? i have. have you ever tried to reach out to a woman and she tell you to your face "your a freak and i don't want to date a freak like you. imaging the stares i'd get??? i have. have you ever went to the dentist and the dentist scream at you "YOUR A WASTE OF GOVERNMENT MONEY!!! I WON'T WORK ON YOUR TEETH???" i have.

i've been alone for most of my life. my only friend is my mother. my father walked out on me leaving my late grandmother to fill the void he left. all he cared about was smoking pot and chasing women, especially women 20-30 years younger than him. he robed the cradle several times. i fell in love with this one women in junior high, she was my everything and i was so ready to love her. but everytime i reached out to her, she would berate me and she even filled sexual harrasment charges on me even though i was innocent.

i tried long distance relationships, but in the end, they would give me the line "your too good for me" or "i think we need to go our seperate ways." i always wondered like the pet shop boys asked "what have i done to deserve this???" i promised myself if a women would give me the chance and love me for me, my good and bad faults and who i am as a individual in society, i would give my world to her. i would love her and only her. i would go to the ends of the earth for her for she is my equal and i am her man. yet, i'm 29 years old, i've never been on a date, i've never been kissed. i was raped by my cousin when i was 8, i've been insulted my whole life. yet, i'm told on this forum i can't feel the way i do because it's not "logical".

like i said before, milk tray man is a long line of people who have insulted me. i hold no ill will against him. i wish we could be friends. i wish he could see the world through my eyes, but then again, that would mean he would have to feel the pain i've felt and i'd wish that on no one. being told your not worth the skin you excist in can be mentally painful.

don't get me wrong, i've had alot of great moments in my life, i was a great student in school, i was a b average, i was voted outstanding scholastic student in the 4th grade. i was on my schools quiz bowl team. i played team sports like american football and baseball even though i was'nt ever athletic, sports have always been a escape that i turn to to keep my mind off the negativity in my life.

i found porn when i was 14, i was so hooked and i loved sex. i loved the though of having great sex with people. but i wanted to be friends with the person i was having sex with and sex be one of the things we do together. i love DP, it is my favorite position and i always get off on watching a goddess being duely pleasured by two throbbing members. i love anal creampie scenes and i love women in porn who come off as friendly and men who don't have a snobby attitude. i don't want to come off as bragging because i'm not but i got a nice sized member myself, just have never had been lucky enough to use it. i compare it to having a ferrari and leaving it in the garage to collect dust. i want to connect to them because i believe i could be a good friend to them, i want to know them, i want to accept them as who they are because i've went down that road of rejection many porn stars have went, by losing family members and being unjustly scorned.

i don't want anyone to think i want you to pity me. it's just my life has been the way it has. i've been blessed by having a mother and grandmother who raised me to be a kind, curtious, caring man. they taught me the the values of life and i live by a strict code that only i must honor. one of those codes is being friendly to people if they are friendly to me. milk tray man may not see how he insulted me, but we cannot feel what others feel because we can only feel for ourselves. i'd shake milk tray man's hand or hug him and want bygones to be bygones because i wish peace and love to all. i'm just like freddie mercury though, i wish i'd have somebody to love because if i had somebody to love, i'd be content and happy with myself.

i know all you out their who are married cannot feel my pain, you are the lucky ones who have found that special somebody and sometimes, married people take their union for granted. don't forget that if you are loved, you are blessed. the eagles once said "you can spend all your time making money, you can spend all your love making time." i'd much rather be poor and have somebody to love me rather than be rich and lonely.

once again, i thank all of you for reading this. KRO everybody.

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Milk Tray Man
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Post by Milk Tray Man »

bluewomble858 wrote:

[quote]yet, i'm told on this forum i can't feel the way i do because it's not "logical".[/quote]

Where exactly? As far as I am aware, no-one on his forum has told you that.

[quote]like i said before, milk tray man is a long line of people who have insulted me.[/quote]

See my previous post.

3SS
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You know what is sad about all this, Milk Tray Man?

When he first indicated that he was insulted by what you said, in spite of not understanding why or how you could have possibly insulted him, you apologised right away. In spite of you being in the right in all this, you tried to make amends.

Most people would have left it at that, but he still pushed and pushed, until you decided you had enough of his attitude.

I even tried to explain what you said to him, but it just went in one ear and out the other. He doesn't care or want to understand the context in which you said it. I wasted a good hour typing as best as I could trying to help him understand what you were trying to say, and it was a waste of time.

Its not hard to understand why this guy has no friends or partners, given the way he finds offense in things not offensive, and the way he has lashed out during this thread, I cannot see many people putting up with that.
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yes they have, i feel insulted, everybody is scratching their heads over why i'm insulted because they don't believe i should be insulted. thus, it's saying it's not logical to be insulted by what some have labled a observation. it's all in how you see it. you see it one way, i see it another. but i'd really wish you'd get past this because i'm not ever going to apologize. i stick to my guns and that's that. i wish we could go foward together. rather or not you want to do that is on you.

as for your advice about, i live in the bible belt. a small religious town in new mexico where christians and catholics roam free. i'm a atheist and my town is a little peyton place. if i reveal i'm a atheist, i will get hate mail, my mother would be shamed and we would be run out of town with pitchforks and torches. i knew somebody in this town who was gay, he used to do my haircuts and he was a favorite of mine, a friendly man indeed. somehow, people found out he was gay and ran him out of town. i went to the barber shop to get my hair done by him and when i asked for him, the boss told me "he had to move, he said he needed a change of scenery."

i know they are against me, i'm not paranoid. it's know around town that the mayor, the chief of police and the judge are all in cahoots with each other, hispanics and blacks get arrested three times as much as whites do. this town is on the take and me and my mother don't have money to get out because we are both disabled and we both seclude ourselves from the rest of the town out of fear of reprisal. we constanly talk about moving elsewhere, but we don't have the money to do it. i've lived in this town 27 years, i've been criticized, analyzed and ostracized.

wherever you live, you may be able to live a life of freedom and have people who except you for who you are. but if you were to live where i live, you would be judged by who you are, what you look like, what you wear, how much money you make, who you are dating, what church do you go to, if you raised your children "the right way" and so forth. this is a very represive place and until you live where i live, you would never understand a small quiet town in the plains of new mexico that underneath has alot of soiled hands and dirty secrets.

i wish you well milk tray man, i really do. i wish you were my lifelong friend where you could see things my way and i could learn a few things. please don't hold a grudge as i would not. i've given it alot of thought and think we have two choices, either we can start over and try to get along with each other or we can go our seperate ways and wish each other well. i know i fly off the handle, but i get mad at what i get mad at, plain and simple. you know their are things you get mad at and anger is not logical, anger is a spontaneous human emotion.

KRO milk tray man, may your days be filled with happiness and joy. !happy!

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Milk Tray Man
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3SS wrote:

[quote]He doesn't care or want to understand the context in which you said it.[/quote]

Quite. Which brings me back to my troll theory.

[quote]Its not hard to understand why this guy has no friends or partners, given the way he finds offense in things not offensive, and the way he has lashed out during this thread, I cannot see many people putting up with that.[/quote]
Indeed.

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i guess i will never get milk tray man or anybodies forgiveness for having a bad weekend and taking it out on a innocent man. from now on, i will not post on this forum. i'm not welcomed her and i'm not welcomed anywhere in society for that matter. i deleted my facebook and myspace accounts because i have no friends their either. i just feel so much pain and heartache right now and i'm begging for relief. calling me a troll really hurt me bad enough though i just want friends who love me. i guess people are right, the more i stay away from them , the better. sorry milk tray man we could'nt have been friends, sorry 3SS, essex lad, alicia_fan_uk and everybody else for me bothering to come on her. i've learned my lesson. no more forums for me. i won't be your problem anymore. i should just fade away. goodbye. !tears!
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